omg.....I'm so silly that I couldn't even find out where to type my entry...haha 
it's the first time I write here and I'm so glad to create a secret world! I know other users may have a look at my blog but at least you dunno me and so I can express everything here freeeeeeeely!
These days,i'm busy with preparing for the exam in june, i know i should have been working very hard but i just can't concentrate totally.....I didn't notice when I've started to become a multi-tasking person. I just can't help myself to conduct several tasks at the same time. I wonder if my achievement would be greater if I can focus on a task without distraction. But i think it's just an "if" cos I still can't manage it.
When i was studying today,i had a thought in my mind about the path i've gone thru. Even now, I dun believe that I can get that far. My academic in high skool was below average and I never got high marks in English. English was the subject that i hated because i never knew the way to study well. At that time, i knew i was a stupid student coz memorization was the only way in my study....sigh
Once I was not able to get into uni, I believed there might be a miracle on me and it did happen!!!!!!!
I was so lucky that I was the one they chose to call,
I was lucky that the lady who called was willing to call again and again until I picked up the phone,
I was lucky that there was a student giving up the place which was then for ME!!!!!
It's just a start until the point that I'm at.
English then becomes my favorite subject. Linguistics or literature,they didn't bother......I would have just randomly picked one as my major. Luckily,I chose linguistics and later found out I was not that in literature lol. After 3 years,I decided to study further cos of the immense interest in language. Several unis offered me a place to study master and i finally picked linguistics in CUHK cos i wanna study some other subs out of English. So i did it, i got into a uni which I had never thought of.
A year flies and there's no difficulty at all when I studied it, but then I found that what I luv most is English language. Linguistics....is not my cup of tea after all. Just thinking of giving a shot to apply for the MPhil program which allows me to have a new experience - research. At that time, I met my previous supervisor again and luckily my academic result was satisfactory enuf and she supported me to get into the department. Then, I was accepted!!
Friends around would wonder how I can study so much further but I could just tell them it's my interest. Some may think that I wanna escape from work or whatever....I dun care cos i just follow myself and do whatever I like. I believe God takes good care of me and let me know several good friends in my postgraduate study. With their supports, there's no difficulty again. People always ask "is it tough to have PG study?" I would then answer "nah,never...." but of course it's effortful! maybe i enjoy it much that the joy and satisfaction overrides any other tough tasks.
Close to graduation, it was another decision time.....work or pursue my study?? but i didnt think much as i would just try every mean i can, so i submitted the application of phd. I didnt have any hope for that tho cos other candidates were so strong that i had no way to be accepted. I never feel i'm an outstanding student....even now.... at that time,with mom's support,I was not anxious about the acceptance as I can go and hunt jobs if i failed! all roads lead to Rome! thus,i had nth to worry about...
perhaps the luck of God gave his hands to me, I was accepted to the doctoral program and that's why here I am! Still, it's incredible that a high sch girl who was poor in academic and now is going to become a doctor in several years.....this is too unreal to me.....
if my life expectancy is 100, i've gone thru one-fourth of my life already. I'm so glad that i can do anything i like in these 25 years. No matter what it will be after graduation, i do hope the enjoyment of life and work will be a continuum.
